Ooooh! I done a lot of thinking recently. More than I thought I was gonna do anyway, not that I was thinking I would of course. By the way, this isn't a mopey post like the first 3, or a meaningless happy post just to try to even things up - it's just a post.

Yeah, you can tell by the title - more soundtracking. But this is weird in that it's just a chilled out feel-good song to me, no real meaning or tie to anyone. Everything is absolutely gravy. I vaguely know where I'm going, less idealistion. First thing is first - we got Ghetto Karting going on soon, pick up the house keys on the way back. Move in at the end of September, a week before Fresher's and another before term starts. Need my last year's notes sorting and to get the core material. Then it's on with working out what's happening next summer. I think the ideal is probably a job with a country I can transfer directly to Auckland with at some point - I don't want to just abandon my Uni friends... thanks for the memories and all that, would rather ease out of it than have a straight deadline.

Then, I need to get my helmet sorted, need to be in race form. Keep up the running, crack on with rowing. Back into the football groove. Pretty much back to first year really - I've done lager lout and lad on the lash and it's been fun, but it's not who I'm always going to be. I think also, people have that turning point in their lives when it's just - enough is enough. I've had raw hangovers, been on mindless benders I can't remember, made a complete dick of myself. But it was always with the boys and it was always 'fun'. Most of them have left, so naturally it won't happen so much. Also, the fact that for the first time ever I was carried home, vomming everywhere and waking up in a pool of piss is not pleasent - it's fucking scary and it's fucking disgusting - I'm never going back there, people will look back and laugh... I just look back and think 'God, what a tool'.

So yeah... positive outlook. Anyway, food is settled - time to go for a run... then settle down with a good book... ;)